These past few days, I’ve been battling out time and pressure. Yet she was always there to understand. We seldom meet because of that f*ckin’ sched. She was wonderful, she was nice, she was beautiful, she was intelligent. We loved each other. But things won’t just fall into place no matter what I do. There was something wrong with me that I didn’t want her to suffer.
So I decided to end it.
Not that I don’t love her anymore, I really do. But I don’t want her to always understand me and wait for me to call or visit her. I don’t want to hurt her anymore.
She just cried when I told her. She was crying so hard I eventually cried myself. Said she’d understand me no matter what. But I don’t think that was the right thing to do especially when I can’t return the favor.
I hugged her tight as she hugged me back. God, what’s happening?!
Eventually we talked it over. It was a calm sight, though. No shouting just like what we imagine with breakups. She even joked around saying I will never find a girl more beautiful than her. She’s right, I guess. I was guilty. But I have made up my mind. She’s better off without me.
We talked and laughed for the next 1 hour and she went to sleep. I just hugged her tight because, maybe, it will be our last. I kissed her for the last time, it was a very long kiss. The kiss I wanted her to remember forever and so will I. I’m so sorry. But there are things I need to fix first.
Maybe tomorrow or the day after it, we’ll both get over with it. I just want her to be happy with me. And maybe, now is not just the perfect time for the two of us. :’(
oh… sweet sorrow. but she really is beautiful. i hope its not too late for you to realize that she’s a lost. *feeling close* haha.
@the islander…thanks sa comments kuya. hehe..^^,
Fergie, ikaw ba yan?
I hope you know,
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It’s personal, myself and I
We’ve got some straightening’ out to do……
but seriously, it is hard.
I have been to similar situations couple of times. Sa awa ng Diyos eto buhay pa naman relationship namin. But I am ready to accept anytime that if despite all you did it will not work, it’s just not meant to be…….
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